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I wish I could migrate to the outskirts of New Zealand, to live with the cows and the sheep. Lead a slow paced life which could potentially make me bored, but I won’t mind giving it a try and even if it fails, I’ll try to hypnotize myself to get used to it. Carry on dreaming natsuri.  

The current state of things proved to be too complicated for me. Things that are happening around me are too complex for me to comprehend. I thought I could.

I don’t understand is overused in the vocabulary library of my conscious mind.

If by repeating this phrase religiously and repeatedly can eradicate all sources of this complexity, I would. Would it?